Computer crash.....

Yes, my computer crashed!  I have never had this happen before, where my computer crashed so totally & completely that literally nothing happens when i turn it on. 

SO.... there is so much I have in me to write, to share, to get out..... but it will have to wait for now.  I have an old computer I am trying to get up & running while I figure out if & how to fix my other - better computer.

I also wanted to let any anonymous readers know that I will be making this blog private once more.  I might write a separate one from Aubrey that I leave open, but as it is now, this one will be invitation only very soon.  Most of my readers are aware of this, but if you didn't get the message & would like to continue reading this blog.... email/text/message me your email address.  I will add you to the readers list, and you will simple receive an email inviting you to read this blog by simply entering in a password of your choosing.

I pray each of my lovely friends & readers are doing well.

With love & light,
Allison

allison.r.sapp@sbcglobal.net

It's a Transitional thing......

So, Bree has been sleeping in a cradle right next to our bed ever since she was born. I love it!! Let me repeat that, I LOVE IT!! I love that she is an arms length away from me. I love that I can hear her little sighs, grunts, and often laughs while she is sleeping. I love that if she looses her pacifier.... all I have to do is roll over & reach in her cradle to give it back to her. I love that on mornings I'm soooooo tired, all I have to do is scoop her up, pull her in bed with me, and nurse her. And every once in a while when she sleeps a long stretch of time & I still get that waking from a dead sleep panic type thing...... All I have to do is turn my head to look at her & all is well. I love it!

AND...Her cradle ROCKS!! I am really happy that I got it. But my only complaint is that it isn't a little bigger. Here is the problem, she is quickly out growing her cradle! I know I know...... my baby is nearly 3 1/2 months old........ and cradles are suppose to be for itty bitty babies. Yeah, yeah, yeah..... I know.

You might also be saying....... but she has her own room with a beautiful crib, comfy bedding, and a baby monitor. So, what's the problem then? Yes, I know this........ but here is the thing....... I'm not ready! I'm trying, but ..... but ..... I dunno.... I'm just not ready. When I think of my little baby sleeping in her big girl crib in her own big girl room.......... I get some sort of bizarre tunnel vision type thing & all of a sudden her room feels 3 miles away from ours. It is absolutely ridiculous! I know, I am aware, ...... But let me just tell you the awareness that it is a little crazy..... doesn't make it go away!

So, here we are, a beautiful growing baby, with a lovely room waiting for her,...... and a mommy that just can't handle it yet. Hahaha! Poor, poor sweet baby Bree, if I'm having problems moving her to her own room........I can't even imagine what will happen when she is going off to college!! AHHHH! LOL!

Well, last night Nick had to work really late. He has big deadline coming up, and wasn't going to be home until after midnight. He also leaves for work around 6am ish, and I knew she would wake up with all of the commotion of Nick coming in & out. We also have 3 dogs................ who all sleep in bed with us. Crazy, crazy.... I know. And let me add...... crowded!! I've often wondered why, when we have a King sized bed, I'm sleeping on the edge of the bed, with a smidgen of a pillow, no covers, and nearly wedged between our bed & Bree's cradle! Haha! I digress..... one problem at a time.

Anyway, lately, Bree has been a little more restless at night for some reason. I was thinking that it was getting off schedule with our recent traveling, but I'm not sure. It's not every night, but lately she has started going back to 4am feedings again. Then, this past weekend, after I got up with the dogs 3 times, told my husband to quit snoring about 10 times, & turned off my husbands alarm clocks 4 times (yes... he sets every alarm in our house.... including our cell phones), all in one night, I started thinking....... maybe we are disturbing her? I mean, who wouldn't be disturbed with all of this noise?? Maybe she is getting a little more restless because my wonderful husband snores like a freight train (sorry baby, but you do), my dogs might need smaller bladders and/or doggie ambien, and every alarm in our house needs to find a new home before I break them! So, I made a mental note......... Bree has her own room. ;) She might sleep better in there..... even if mommy doesn't at first.

So, I figured with Nick working late last night...... God might be saying..... give her room a try? So, drum roll p-l-e-a-s-e....... Bree slept in her big girl crib last night!!!!

You might also be wondering..... well, how did you do with that mommy???? Well, I did okay...........................

Considering I slept on the floor right next to her crib all night! HAHAHA!!! Yeah, yeah, yeah..... I don't want to hear it.

Bree did great! She still got up for her 4 am feeding, but I think she slept pretty good. Here she is waking up this morning.

So, now what? I think it might take several weeks.... & I'm not saying we are completely finished with the cradle just yet...... but hopefully we are progressing. :) Well, maybe I should say..... mommy is progressing! ;)

Goodbye Southlake, Hello Missouri....

Well, Nick's parents have offically moved to St. Louis, Missouri! The movers came and packed them up on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, and they headed out on Thursday afternoon. They broke up their long 10 hour drive into 2 days..... and with 3 cats in the car..... I'm sure it was a l-o-n-g trip! They move into their new house in the next day or so.

Bree says..... "I'll miss you Grandma & Grumpy..." :)